I feel so behind.
I have a package to send to Elgin that I know will arrive late, because it's for my sister's birthday that was in December, and it has presents in it for my other sister and my dad, whose birthdays are this weekend.
I printed 200 copies of our news update for November and December, and I still haven't sent them to everyone... (what do I do about that?!)
I have about 15 Thank You's to write still; some of those are from Christmas! I also have to respond to several friendly letters.
I haven't scrubbed the floors of Stone House for over a month now.
I've only done one load of laundry in the past two weeks, and it's still in the dryer.
These last several months I've just felt like Sidney. Do you remember him from Phil Vischer's book? (He's the messy one in front of the blue door.) I feel like lately I have really lost my grip on things. [Everything at TECH is great. I'm keeping up... even if it means printing brochures until midnight, so that it is done.] I just see these other things that are NOT getting done, and I feel a bit, well, rumpled.
And I know that there are "Normans" looking at me... wondering why I don't have all my ducks in a row. The truth is, I can't figure out how they CAN have ducks in a single file. I suppose we just puzzle each other. I just wish I could be a Norman... about something. Maybe for a day. That way I would know that I am much happier being a Sidney who is just loved so much by God, than a Norman who needs to be disciplined for his pride. You know what would be REALLY cool? Is if I wouldn't even notice that I was a reflection of Sidney. It would be awesome if I kept a one-track mind---swerving AWAY from introversion and just staring right at Christ. THAT would be cool. I hope that soon I can grow out of this stage of thinking I'm the star of this movie where I really am just appearing for a split second as an extra. -- Francis Chan
That's probably all I have for tonight as I wait for these brochures to be printed. I'm so thankful for the ministry team I get to be on. It's really starting to feel like a family to me, and I'm so glad. Tomorrow Matt and I are staying until ten with a work crew from Kilgore Bible Church that's coming out to help us clean up renovation dust and the like. :) It should be a neat party.
